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Heyhey. At computer lab now.

I think I'm going crazy.
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Why is Mas Selamat two-thirds woman?

Because. He is one-third [wanted] man!

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:D

HYDROLICS - B5 [feat. Bow Wow, P. Diddy]

Watch it.
I love the dance.

^^ Our science project. Oh. And Swapna. (:

Went to Becky's house!

All the way at Ang Mo Kio. I was one hour late.

Ain't my fault I got lost.

Oh. But her house is mega cool. Very cosy. Homey?

Worked on our Science project with Steph Ho and Swappy.

And to those people in NCC,

I saw Ma'am Ann.

She served us milk.

Haha. No la.

But I saw her. (:

Err. I sound like an obsessive stalker. I am not, okay?

Seriously.

shut your mouth and eff off, would ya?

i'd be glad.

i hate it when you order me around. who do you think you are?

i hate it when you make me feel dumb and worthless.

i hate it when you comment and make me feel worst than what i'm already feeling.

i hate it when you suck up to mum and dad.

i hate it when you tell the world what i did wrong.

i hate it when you wouldn't shut up when I asked you to keep quiet.

i hate it when you do all the things you know i dislike.

i hate the way you smile when i say i hate you.
i hate it when you're around.

i hate you.

i hate the fact that i'm your punching bag and youve got everyone else on your side.

everyone thinks you're some kind of goddess and i'm just some suck-ass shit.

congrats. youve made me feel all f-d up again.

& you know it. and you love it, dont you?

youd probably laugh your ass off if and when you read this.

what the fuck is your problem?

just leave.

just die.

but i wont shed a tear.

There's no school today!

And there's no school tomorrow!

I am happy. (:

I am going to sleep early tonight,

and wake up late tomorrow.

& nothing can stop me!

hoorah.

sleep, sleep, sleep!

that's all i can think of, after 1 whole week of lack of sleep.

i slept in the bus yesterday. missed my stop.

but boy, did i feel refreshed.

btw, the past tense of shit is shat, right?

not shitted, right?

lol.

Actual Lyrics:

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

I can't live If living is without you
I can't live I can't give anymore (x2)

I feel so mean. =X

Perhaps I don't show it much, but every part of me is screaming inside.

I never seem to get enough sleep these days and work just keeps on piling on top of me.

A big pile of shit. I need a break.

I am tired. Lethargic. Sick.

Yea, that's right. Sick. Of everything.

School, work and even people whom I was once close to.

Almost every little thing pisses me off. & I'm sorry if I may appear rude or irritable.

I just need time to cool off.

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To you who never seems to get enough.

I am sick of you and your childish behavior. What do you get?! Here I am, feeling f-ed up. I don't need your damn comments to make me feel worst. Yes, I am not as strong as I thought I was. But just shut your freaking mouth. I hate it when you make me feel dumb. But you love it, don't you. Fuck you.

I hate you.

i spent nearly $20 in 2 days on food.

i am broke. =/

heyheyhey. showed of my drawing prowers during my convo with dan. XD

so cool, right? XD

there were more, but my camera's battery died.

urgh.

ok. shall do my karangan now.

pfffft. look at the time.

i suck.

currently listening to: what about now - daughtry.

went for ymc yesterday.
hm. was ok, i guess. hees.

omgomgomg.
i am broke!
and i mean, broke!
i've got not a single cent left.
i need to stop spending money on unnessecary stuffs.
like food.

Wow. Been free, eh?
Posted everyday of the week.
And yet, I've been complaining about the never-ending projects.
Haha.

Errkay. Going YMC tomorrow.
Ain't sure if I'm looking forward to it though.
Hmm. Yep. That's it.

I really got nothing better to do, ars?
lol.

WE RAN 5.3km !
great job! (:

NCC was ok? I can't believe I'm not going to Mt Kinabalu! I really wanted to go. They said that you need to get an A in 2.4 to be able to go, and I've been training! Now what...

Nvm. Congrats to those who were selected! XD

oh. and Lizzie rocks in everything la.

Someone's jealous. Nyehehees.(:

Three cheers, because the Click 5 are coming to Singapore! And I'm going to try to win tickets to their concert!

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Meiyin: I'm dropdead gorgeous!

Me: Drop dead? Yeah.. But not gorgeous.

Meiyin: Whatever!

Me: You are damn smart.

Meiyin: No, I am not smart, I am stupid.

Me: Yeah...

Meiyin: Whatever!

currently listening to: no u hang up - shayne ward

I RAN 4KM FOR FUN!
WEEEEEE!~

'we got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love.' <33

Wahlao. I'm damn sleepy already.

Woke up at 2.30am yesterday to study for geog test.

Didn't think that they were going to test us on plantations. So I didn't study plantations. Big mistake.

The questions tested on the topic carries 3 marks each.

Shit.

And I finally finished the camp report shit.

Wah lao. But I'm not done, am I?

AISYAH ! YOU OWE ME BIGGG !

Alright. School's started.

And we got back our tests marks.

I suck.

Got a pathetic 25/40 for Language Arts. I don't even want to talk about Maths. Pleased to say I did well for History.

I hate french. Je deteste le langue. So yeah, I pon it, for the erm. 2nd time this year. Went to Lot 1 to eat lunch with Aisyah and Amelia. I feel so short and fat standing next to Amelia. Yea. :X

Then went to study with Aisyah at the library. Geog test tomorrow. Reports to be handed in tomorrow. I've yet to finish putting together my maths file and there's math tomorrow. I haven't laid a finger on Adventure Camp's reflection. My incomplete, crumpled up malay homework is still in my bag. And I've a feeling I'm missing something out.

Nyahahas.

I can do this! XD

urgh. becoming unfit.

i am going to run tomorrow!

Alright! Second post of the day! The first one was at 2am.
Haha. I overslept and was 20mins late for class just now. Serves me right. (:

Oh darn. School's starting tomorrow. That's sad. I'm just beginning to enjoy myself a little bit. And I havent started on homework! Haha. It's not much though, I think. So I'll survive. Guess I'm gonna stay up till 2am again? Hees. [:

Procrastination, I swear, one day, I WILL triumph over you.

Seems like a lot of people got into cubing, so I've decided to give it a try. I have no freaking idea on how to solve it! Leg-end, I need your help! Nyehahaha.

2am! wah. havent sleep. nyehahaha.
crapping with Idris! wth! he's damn crappy!

ack. accidentally closed the convo. so i cant copy and paste.
lol. but he's damn lame la.

he's a mad cow i tell ya. who helps produce milk that is then fermented into cheese by humans. apparently, hang tuah loves cheese. that's why he's always saying "CIS!"

alright. very sleepy. gonna sleep. shall post tomorrow? see first. goodnights!

When You Look Me In The Eyes
Jonas Brothers.

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

[chorus]
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

[chorus]

More and more,
I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

[chorus]

Ok. Woke up early this morning to go to the toilet. Haha. Couldn't go back to sleep.

Pissed at mum for nagging, dad for making comments that were irritating, and almost rude, sister for being the most childish and immatured 24 year-old I've seen.

Yes, we're a happy family, folks.

Supposed to go out with Steph Ho and Tata? to do geography project at Newton. But I've got class later. Damn.

Can't believe the holidays are coming to an end! Mine just started thanks to camp. Gahgah. Need to start homeworking. Needa stop procrastinating.

Give me a break.

Oh yeah. I woke up this morning and heard Miley Cyrus on the radio. No offence, but I think she sounds like Donald Duck or something. I don't like her voice. She's abit.. nasal. Is that the word? When you sing through your nose. Yeah.

Oh shucks. Just remembered I have 6 reports to do on Annual Camp and the NCOs. What shit. We have to write about 500 words for each NCO. What crap. I don't have that much to say about each NCO. In the meantime, I ain't gonna give a damn about the reports. Waste of my frigging time.

Erm. Pretty stressed currently, I guess.

Okok. I promise. The next time I post, it'll be a lot more cheerful. (:

Went Bugis just now with Zahrah, Atiqah and Ilyan. Atiqah was friendly. yesyes! Ilyan too? I guess. He didn't talk much. Ahahas.

Oh. And I talked to Irsyad. Haha! He's a lamo friendly pop.

Err. My mood is spoiled. By something, or someone, to be more specific. Urgh. Whatever.

I need to start doing homework.

Eyh. Wtf la. I've been having moodswings. No, not really moodswings. Just, havent been feeling very happy. Urgh. Ok. Change subject. Erm. I find Science to be a pretty interesting subject.

Hm. Hoping that Zahrah would call and entertain me later.

Was supposed to go Ochard. Went to Parkway Parade instead. Bumped into Danish. Like wth.

Me: They'll never find us here. People would think that girls like us would shop at Esprit or something, not Royal Sporting House.

Then, in came Danish and the Cedarian gang. Pai seh.

Err. Talking on the phone with Zahrah and her friends. It's late at night, and listening to Zahrah's loud voice is not very pleasant..

Haha. I'm expecting visitors in my blog? So I shall sound happy.
Here's the joke of the day:
Why did Beyonce sing "to the left, to the left"?

[ because blacks have no rights. =X ]

63 words

BEAT THAT! HAH!

someone's celebrating his/her birthday today. i can't remember who. =/

going out with yanah and nadiah later? aint sure if it's confirmed. outings with yanah and nadiah are usually cancelled at the last minute.

currently listening to shayne ward's breathless and no promises. his songs just makes me feel so low, almost depressed. the tune is just so slow and and. gah. i needa snap out of it.

If I said camp was super, I'm an optimist like no other.
Camp was err. ok?
I'd be lying if I said it was total utter hell. It had its ups and downs. There were tears and laughter. And pain was undeniably there. Bruised palms, aching arms and I feel as if the bones on my feet are shattered.

Camp was without a doubt tougher than last year. The amount of difficulty doubled. I don't even want to talk about it.

But CO night was fun. I laughed. Hard. Amusing pictures of Gaya and Tiziana and Aisyah and hilarious skits were enough to get me feeling high. But the mood changed when a Part A hyperventilated and went unconscious. We were terrified.

Lethargic as I am, I'm still breathing. And that's all that matters.

Annoyed by her,

who just sits there

with that pathetic expression,

in 'pain', while the rest of us were struggling,

enduring pain you've never felt before.

Two words for you. Just. Quit.

From Oxford's wordpower dictionary,

holiday
a holiday is a period of time that you
have away from your work or job, and often enjoying yourself in some activity or
just relaxing.

Annual camp's tomorrow.

Urgh. I was looking forward to it.
But there's so much work piling on top of me now. From assignments to project works. Crappy shit.

I need a break.

Explain to me again the meaning of the word 'holiday.'

currently listening to: no air - jordin sparks and chris brown.

missing camp. missing the instructors. missing the fun and laughter.

here's what we did during camp.

We went rockclimbing and Mr Cheng's attempt at climbing the rockwall was err.. unsuccessful.

Mr Cheng: Falling!
2GY: BE A MAN!
Mr Cheng: Fallingg!
2GY: SPLAT! SPLAT! SPLAT! SPLAT!

Then there was the high rope course.
We had abseiling the next day. The instructor did his demo rather quick.
Me: Do it again! I wasn't looking!

I like abseiling. (:

Then there was kayaking. Pei Wei, Sydney, Jia Ying and Miranda capsized!
Sydney: Omg! Something went up my pants!

And then it was my turn to stand up. The kayak was really unstable. I fell on Joellyn's foot.
Joellyn: AHHHHH! GET UP! OUCH! MY FOOT!
I was laughing madly, out of breath, unable to move, resting on her foot for a solid 15 seconds.
Joellyn's toe became purple, but I would like to clarify that it was not my fault. She bumped into something, I think.

We did fuel cooking. Had trouble starting the fire. And there was dirt in the food. I didn't eat it.

Dragon boating was fun too! Then it was campfire. All the instructors were really funny, entertaining.

Kenneth: I KILL YOU!
Thaqif: Basketball court you!
Jena?: EH! I just came back from Sydney! And Sydney is here in Singapore!
I know how to speak Italian..... Spaghetti.
Christina?: I know Singapore Italian..... Ma-Ka-Ro-Ni.

Here in Changi, we do it with our tongue.